Wed. Evening, April 18th
Hi Special people.....
I have to admit I pushed Tami just a bit today.....I was afraid we were going to miss the financial aid people at the hospital and we barely made it in to talk to a sweet girl from Brazil. Although the information was far from ideal, Tami is going forth with faith that the Lord didn't bring her all this way for no reason. She has a child-like faith and there is no room for fear. She has an undercurrent of stress that eats at her and for that reason and what she has been through in the past 8 months, pressing forward is like pulling 2 steel weights each time she lifts a foot to press forward, if you know what I mean. Having said that, she is just returning from a little run with a new friend who is here with her mother who is 83 and is the oldest recipient of stem cell implants in the world! We are amazed at her. Everybody told her not to do anything, but she said, I've still got a lot of living to do. This lady has also lost 2 husbands and 3 0f her 4 children. She lives up North from here in a small communiy.
It was good for Tami to go for a run and empty her stress buckets....she has seemed unhappy to go into the hospital atmoshere and said...."Let's get out of here, I don't like this place."
During the night last night while I was tossing a bit and Tami was still not asleep, we heard a little bird singing the same little song over and over....it was not unpleasant nor irritating but we both wondered about the little bird. My perception was that the little bird had lost something or seemed sad...Tami's perception was that the little bird was just learning to sing and was practicing before the sun broke...She thought he was the early bird just getting prepared for the worm....like she has to get up a few hours early before she can begin to catch up with everyone else.
We spoke with Jo about Jason today (the one that has the same Dr. as Tami and just had the hipec yesterday.) He is supposed to be out of the hospital in 10 days and even sat up today in a chair. I think this has lifted her spirit a little to see someone go through this. But she also tries to take in what Peter told us....Don't get too excited about the good news nor too discouraged about the bad...Jason was also only 38....but....even so....She hopes she can do it and beat those little pacmen
Tami wishes the Dr. would take her in tomorrow and just get the whole thing over with....it's the waiting I think that's driving her crazy.
Tami is her normal fun self down in the kitchen and everyone loves her....It is her gift, to lift others....she just can't do it for very long before she wears out....unless of course it's 10:00 or later at night. She seems morre positive tonight and I know its because she got to get out and go for that run.
Well, tomorrow is the big day and our last full day here. Tami's heart tells her that the Dr. will be able to help her.
Hope all is just wonderful for each of you, if not, make it that way and hug those around you and thank the Lord for your health.
Judy
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